Tonight I re-watched Who Framed Roger Rabbit for the umpteenth time, an extremely important movie to me. It reminded me why I started drawing and what I wanted to do with my skills once they got to a certain point.
When I was younger I made a resolution. It kept me up while I made flawed art, it kept me bright, it kept me awake. But then, somewhere during these years, it died out. Recently improving and walking out of my comfort zone has been harder than ever.
The fact I draw porn kind of acted as a pillow, a cozy place to lay upon to keep paying the rent and justify myself that I need little improving by this point, because no one would care anyways. I didn't realize how much I stopped caring myself.
Tonight I make that resolution again. I won't say what it is until I've reached the goal and I will cherish it for myself, because I noticed the more I say something the less I act to make it a reality, rather than a wet-dream in which I can loose myself.
I will be sharing it only once I'm in the position to do it, if I ever will be, and I will do all in my power to get to that point.
Thanks you all for supporting me so far. Hopefully I'll be giving you even more reasons to do so. Back to work on those commissions <3